I choose to be me

I can be hell on wheels
if hell existed
I can be tommorows stale bread
if today there was a loaf  in  the cupboard
I can be a doctor
with a couple hundred thousand dollars and 8 years of education
A lawyer if I could master a lie
A child-at heart
I can be a poet with words and expressions
A musician if I had rythmn
A time traveler in another dimension
I could make peace given the chance
I could make rain with a dance

I could travel to the moon with high anxiety from fear of heights
Swim across a river with a little bit of training
Run in a marathon if I put my mind to it
Climb a mountain if I knew the direction
I can smell a flower, without picking it
Tell someone when they have snot hanging out of their nose, their fly unzipped, food on their face, their shirt unbuttoned, or any other thing you wish someone would have said to you.

Yes,  I can be a whole bunch of expectations

I choose to be me.

Peace Unknown

The kind of road that doesn't end
until you're used to the gravel
the sliding around on all four wheels
the washboards shaking your car up and down
for miles and miles
with trees on each side disappearing as you drive by
Looking for the perfect side road to back up onto
headlights off......

The kind of day the sun beats down
until your sweating uncontrollably
riding around on a bike with the family
the potholes appearing out of nowhere
for blocks and blocks
with cars bumping bass lines as they perpetrate drive-by's
looking for the perfect nature trail to explore
headgear on....

The kind of music that blares your ears
Until every thing you hear is a mild ring at the end of the show
Jamming loudly in the room
The sound screaming from all walls
for what is never long enough
with a moshing pit of people bloodied and bruised
looking for fat guy to hide behind
headset off

The feeling that shakes your soul
until your in a vulnerable anxiety attack state of panic
running uncontrollably in your mind
The thoughts coming out from all directions
for what seems like years
Angel on one shoulder devil on the other tagteam
looking for a way to escape
headache looming


Its the kind of life that surrounds my world
Until I laugh uncontrollably or slowly go insane
sound of ice cream trucks, train whistles, and car alarms all around me
for what seems like eternity
Random mixture of  mankind all up and down the streets
looking for a place to fit into
Peace unknown.

Naturally

Naturally

Shining through the sky so bright

You are my moon, my nights light

Breaking through the day at dawn

You are my sun, darkness gone.

From burdened clouds of mournful grey.

You are the rain that pounds the pave

Erupting as the seabirds cry

You are an ocean that brings the tide

Thriving on the solar rays

You are a rainbow spread out across the day

Flaming oranges catch the eye

You are the Fall leaves falling from the sky

The path of mossy ground nestled deep

You’re a spring walk through the forests trees

A lock of hair lifting off my shoulders

You are the wind that gently flutters

Nature is many things from which the world brings

Naturally

A True Friend

When you're looking for someone to count on,

You can always look my way.

I'll stand beside you, weak or strong

I will defend you, all life long

When you are looking for someone to believe in you

I can be that friend.

I will help you battle, good or bad

I will help you till the end.

But what I can’t promise is that dark clouds will never hover over us

Or that the future will be full of rainbows

I can’t promise you perfection

Because that’s not who I am

I can’t promise you complete happiness

Because with true love there comes pain

But I’ll try to be the best of friend that I can truly be..

On Meaning

What is sunshine without rain
Believing without doubting
Happiness without pain
Whispering without shouting

What is light without dark
White without black
Fire without spark
Front without back

What is up without down
Breathing without air
Music without sound
Hate without care


What are hellos without goodbyes
Running without walking
Tears without eyes
Gasps without sighs

What is you without me
Flowers without dirt
Honey without bees
Gratitude without hurt


Would any of this be the same
To have one without another?
Life without meaning
Us without each other?

You and I

You give me butterflies in an already unsettled stomach
Smiles on my face at daybreak
You bring music to my ears when all there is is silence
Hope to a road that goes on and on

You make me feel like I am that exception
The sunshine to your day
A finally aged wine pulled from the cellar
A flower making its first break

When the day turns to night
and the day has been long
You are there to hold on to
 As I drift to sleep and get lost in thought
Its you in my dreams I go running to.
 
You are the moon in my night sky
The sun in the morning light
The water the fish swim in
This is us..You and I.

THE DAY OF THE DAY--By Nicholas Hill

Today was the day the sun came out
the day of the day birds were singing
Flowers were blooming
today is the day of the day kids were playing
reading and watching T.V
On the day of the day barbecues were happening
kids playing in the sun shooting baskets and having fun
on the day of the day families going to the coast
having so much fun eating popsicles and getting ready to run
the sun is beating down on us, the very hot sun
kids acting like the night will never come
kids trading baseball cards and playing sports
everybody's dressed in their swimming shorts
jumping in the pool
trying to get cool
everybody having so much fun on the day of the day

Lost without a GPS

I am lost without direction
and I'm trying to find my way
and I'm ten miles from the nearest intersection
and I'm extremely  lost without my GPS
yes Im fucking lost without my gps

Some person thought it would be funny to invade
and some person thought it would be funny to take
and Im suddenly ten miles from my nearest thought
Yes Im fucking lost without my gps ...
Yes Im lost without my gps.

Yesterday I had it all programmed in
Yesterday I was pretty sure what route to take
and I thought for sure I knew which road to drive
But , Im lost without my GPS
Yes, Im insanely lost without my GPS

But Im getting used to the fact...
Life is not programmed by my GPS
Yes, life is simply not a GPS

My Promise

A million stars couldn't compare
to my first look in your eyes
Your soft cry your golden hair
My heart just cried and cried

A thousand moons with moonlight shine
Couldn't of swept me away more
Then your gently tug on my finger tips
and the love you put forth

My son, my darling baby
I love you more than life
I promise to always be the best I can be
to take chances even when it means to fight.

I will provide you with love, with shelter, with guidance
I will lead by the best example I know
My son, my darling baby
Together we will grow.